MAKE FACE. FUNNY FACE. GOOFY FACE.

I have lots of stolen shots at different angles. Others may find it cute. Some would tell I'm so ugly I can die but whatever it is I still love those candid shots. If ever we're friends in facebook you would notice that most of my default pictures are goofy/stolen/candid shots. I don't know why but I find them REALLY cute. hahaha Cuter than when I'm smiling :)

It was like intended to be seductive/Alluring but the hell with being like that . 

Apparently I was texting with some feelings :)

This is one of the funniest picture I have in my whole life.

I was really blabbing about some problems regarding our data collection at this moment. 

Playing with my new phone :D

Something caught my attention for a while :)

Disappointed.

I'm sleeping while reading sitting upright. Really, I can do that. 

Scariest face I can ever have. :)

"Gigil"

Unexpectedly :p

The goofiest face a person can ever hav. Try it. :)

Thinking :))

I still have lots of them but my TOP SECRET FUNNIEST PICTURE EVER was at a real photo album. hahahaha! Gonna scan it soon :)

Another Sad Story

You were one of the best persons I used to know. You were more important than any friends I had back then. you were the kind of best friend I wanted to grow old with. You were everything I wished and prayed for a friend.

I don't know what happened. I guess, the trust and the value of each other are the very things we've lost. You're one of my favorite friends. Maybe I loved you so much that I could not have any bestest friend in the world.

One of the reasons why I wrote this was I am close to tears trying to suppress the feeling of missing you. I miss you, really. All the things I missed and remember about our friendship have still so much more to it. 

I miss laughing around with you. Cracking corny jokes without even bothering if I sound stupid because I know you would laugh. I miss sharing cool and great and funny stories with you even at times I didn't get any reply because I am sure at the end of the day you appreciate it all. I miss watching movies together with you.You will be the only person I would remember in the perfume POLO BLUE by Ralph Lauren.

Our friendship WAS everything to me. Our goofy moments were soo worth it. Our favorite Mary Rose would be a non-living testimony of a friendship that could be worth remembering. You were the first person to made me realize that playing Bingo is not bad after all. You were my expected caller during my birthdays. You used to be my smile, my sunshine and my answered prayer. You showed me how great the world is by letting me feel how is it to be somebody's favorite. I know you highly favored me. I considered you as part of my daily life. You were part of my future dreams. You haven't given me tangible things for me to keep but you were one of my favorite memories.

But those were all used to be. I have to rearrange my life now. I can never let you hurt me again, this will be the last. I don't need another illogical explanation. Just got done with one. What I just want was for you to be there for me and I'll promise to be there for you a thousand times over but just in a snap you forgot to value the time I'd given you.

I know you. I knew every little pieces of you. I know how these things between us have been influenced by our pride. I just want you to know, I am not mad at you anymore. I just need to restart my life without you. You've been a part of my messy life for like 8 years now. We've been through a lot of dramas , I call those dramas because those were the days our love for each other is more important than our pride. 

It breaks my heart but for now, I'm shutting you out of I'm life then I'll be okey sooner. If that time comes maybe we'll be friends again - normal friends but not partner anymore.

Feel something else.

You cannot prevent people from bringing pain in your life. Most often than not you don't let go of that feeling in less than a month or so. You are fortunate if you can do so. When you're in pain you tend to think that the pain was personally inflicted and it was unfair and hurtful for you to take the blame. What you cannot understand is that sometimes it's both of you who commited mistake but you as a person hurt - you get bitter.

When you feel like you're hurt or betrayed by someone, it's okay to feel sad and angry and mad. Being bitter is a natural thing to feel but be sure to feel good and better and happy afterwards. 

When someone hurt you, be a nagger. It's okay. Blame that person all you want and free yourself from all the guilt then let go and be better. 

When you are in pain, you have all the courage to be mad and feel sad and oppressed. You don't usually get the other side of the story. You want to draw a picture of those things that were gone in your life after you've been hurt and slap it to that person's face. 

When you are disappointed, don't let go of that feeling unless you did get even. Getting even or the feeling of need to get even is very acceptable. You just have to remind yourself that being beautiful and happy and being absolutely and totally okay is the sweetest revenge. 

Yes, you were hurt but it doesn't mean you have to wish that person being miserable. Doing so would hurt you even more. Being bitter and nagger is very acceptable and wishing something beyond is very unprofessional and immature (talk of being matured).

Feel the pain, taste the tears, embrace the hurt - be bitter, let go and then get better.

THIS IS IT.

We're done 4 months ago and I want you to know that I am living my life to its best without anymore bitterness in my heart <3. I've already forgiven you and myself. I think we've hurt each other enough or so much that we cannot love each other again. You tried to be the best without knowing that you were already the best for me. I did overanalyzed you that I forgot to understand you as you are. 

After the break - up, I was bitter. Bitterness helped me to move forward with motivation and confidence :)) I thought, its been all your fault and you've pushed me so hard that I had to move - on. As I decided to do so, I grew up and be matured as well. I realized, maybe you just don't want to hurt me in the long run. 

Now, I'm doing sooo well. I'm so fine that by this time I can't remember when was the last time my pillow was wet with tears.

I'M SO OVER YOU. We're truly done. <3

Happy Independence Day

Free Me.

Single Me.

Happy Me.

Beautiful Me.

Always Me.




Gorgeously Yours,

Xejjy <3

Changed Me.

So, the changed me has to change the world. :))

No to Palawan Mining. 

I've seen this on television two months ago but because of busy schedules, I forgot to post something about it. I remember when Kissy told me that after passing the board exam she would work as a nurse in a  mining company somewhere in Palawan, you know  my reaction was? hahahahahahahahaha! Well, I had been telling her the whole day NOT TO DARE work on mining company because I would reject her as my friend. hahahahaha and Dolly was like laughing her head off while I am dead serious blabbing my litany about palawan mining. Fortunately, kissy confirmed that it was not the Palawan mining she'd enter. Thank God or else I would be compelled to not to consider her as one of my closest - gorgeous friend. LOL.

I was just joking about the  reject word. I love Kissy so much and I think she' scompletely aware of my stand about environment dilemmas. :))