I always have faith in friendship. I have my best girlfriend, my bestest friend, my best girl group, my echuseras, my chikas and kantobols. See? I don't even have 2 dozens. That's how choosy I am when it comes to friends.
Yes, I have faith in friendship but I am CHOOSY. I am choosy on my LIFETIME FRIENDS but I was never and never will be choosy in someone to start a friendship with. I'm open to every life's possibilities (things that I never tried and never experience) BUT I would never do the same unhappy things twice, that's foolishness. I love myself more than I love the feeling of pleasing other people. If others can't understand me then let them understand me not. Allah knows I cherished every people I met but not all of them could be cherished forever. There are some who would just forget you or you would forget along the way. But whatever it is, there would be lapses that would make you realize it's not worth keeping. Let's get into life's sad reality that not everything is worth for keeps. Some of them are for other people to keep and not mine. Moreover, I own no one.
This is for those people who seem to not understand my side. I'm asking for their eyes to read and their ears to listen to me. Yes, that's how demanding I am. I know how to be a real big plastic but I can't smile, laugh and talk to those people I don't like. Maybe I can give them a - not - so - nice smile and just greet them hello/hi but I would never indulge myself to them for hours.
To those friends I have but can't push myself to meet them, I do have my fair reasons to do so. Maybe you have hurt me and I can't just pretend to meet you and act like there's nothing wrong and I don't go to gatherings without an invitation.
My point here is that I maybe busy and over sensitive but I am not a snob, I may forget some things but I don't leave my lifetime friends, I may choose my friends but I make sure that they are very much loved by me and that I maybe harsh and not sane at times but my decision of making and not making friends with someone is what I do with my heart rather than my head.
