Have a Deep Breathe And Let It Go.

HAHAHAHA. Happy girls are the prettiest.


I really can't stay depressed. With people around who love me, I don't have the right para mag-inarteng kabuhayan :) As I said, Go large lang nang go large teh! This, too, shall pass. HAHAHA.

My mom woke me up that morning of Jan. 25 just to tell me everything's all right. And I don't believe her, really. So I told her I wanna go back to Cotabato and she said tomorrow morning (well that's later) WE'LL BOTH go home. And I said OK then I went back to sleep.


My youngest bro was absent yesterday. Don't know why but I thanked him for that because I'm not really in the mood to do everything. So, he prepared my breakfast, he washed the dishes, mop the floor, cleaned the C.R. and I let him use the internet the whole morning for his reward. Sounds great.


Oh yes! I came up to this realization that napakadrama at arte ko pala. HAHAHA. Hindi naman affected yung kapatid ko, my mom told me it's okey but I am not the convinced daughter, my pop can still laugh and make fun of everyone in the house. Oh! Ako na ang drama queen baybeh! Kasi naman, I never get used to them fighting or never in my entire life I saw my mom cried. Even at my Lola's death, she's the toughest. :) Oh! speaking of Lola, I miss you bigtime! :*


Yes, after writing the three paragraphs, I AM OKEY. Hindi ko naman kaya mag-inarte ng mahigit isang araw no. I'd die. :D And besides, saraaap kaya ng ulam namin kanina. Okey na yun pang-peace offering ng magaling kong tatay. :D 


Time to say my goodnight. Omg. PNLE result will be released soooooon. Thinking about it shakes my emotional stability again. It's like the same feeling I had the day before I took the board exams. *chills*


And oh btw, to you who never ever fail to make me feel fine. I appreciate the text. You're the best <3. Will text you tomorrow este later:) Goodnight! Sweetest dreams for you and see you later! 


Yaaaay! gonna lie down in between of my two annoying siblings. They're soo malikot :| (HAHAHA. Kung maka.update parang twitter lang) LOL.

Have a heart that is free from hatred, ang mantra for 2012. :))

#RANDOMFACTSABOUTME

Kanus-a pa man ni mahuman? LOL dahil love, peace, happiness naman tong blog ko e eto na lang muna ang ika-career ko. Go large lang nang go large! :)

101. Narealize ko na I can watch Aladdin over and over and over again.:)
102. I love watching Phineas and Ferb. Oh candace! Ikaw na ang annoying sister, reaalllly! at epic ang Nemysis:)
103. Di ako marunong magnailcutter way back. Natuto lang ako when I got in to college.
104. I never had a manicure and pedicure. Ako na ang takot sa tusok tusok sa nails. HAHA
105. My youngest brother and I share the same pants. HAHAHA. Oo, hinihiram ko ang mga cargo pants niya. LOL
106. Mahilig akong magbasa ng libro. Mayroon akong siguro mga mahigit 200 na novel books:) at nabasa ko silang lahat.
107. Ang dami dami dami kong best friend. Pero my bestest girlfriend is doll :) Walang kupas. :D
108. Mahirap akong paiyakin. My family is my truest weakness. Lagi akong masaya e.:)
109. Pinaka-ayokong household chore ang maghugas ng pinggan. Okey lang sa akin maglaba o maglinis ng bahay wag lang mag wash ng plates. :)
110. Mye - mye, may - may, my - my. Sa kahit anong paraan mo gustong i-spell yan basta yan ang palayaw ko.
111. Madalas akong magsalita pag tulog. Walang mintis yan. :D
112. 'Till my heartaches end ang pinakaunang kantang namemorize ko. HAHAHA. Loser-ish. grade four ata ako nun. Di uso sa akin yung KABA ni Roselle Nava e. HAHAHA.
113. Grade four ako unang nagka-crush.
114. Ako ang babaeng walang kaibigan sa kapitbahay. Ewan ko, hindi ako friendly sa amin. Loner nga kasi ako way back since forever. :D
115. Hindi ako marunong magbasa ng map. oo, as in nang mapa.
116. Walang epekto ang alarm clock sa akin. Saksi ang mga kagrupo ko sa duty at boardmate ko sa amazing fact na yan about me.
117. Aside sa paghuhugas ng pinggan, pinaka ayaw ko rin ang magtapon ng basura.
118. Kumakain ako kahit saan. I mean, hindi ako mapili ng kainan.
119. Paborito ko ang barbeque specifically isaw.
120. Pero hindi ako kumakain ng laman - loob ng baka pag hindi luto sa bahay. I have that weird feeling na marumi siya. HAHAHA.
121. Hindi ako mahilig sa pancit. Mukha akong bihon e. :)
122. Marami akong kiliti. Wag ng bilangin. mauubos ang numero. HAHAHA
123. Hindi ako takot sa ipis o sa kahit anong lumilipad na pangit na insekto. Pero takot akong tignan ang butiki.
124. Left handed ako.
125. Sobrang byahilo ko. Lagi akong may supot pag sumasakay ng bus o ng van kasi ako na ang hindi tinatablan ng bonamine.

HUNA-HUNAA JUD GIRL.

Hindi bagay sa blog kong ito ang negative vibes. Syet you. HAHAHA.

Buang nako ba. Ganina naghilak tapos karon katawa na sad.

Happy thoughts lang katapat mo. :)

PARA SA'YO BITCH.

Alam mo kahit kelan wala akong intensyong sirain ang buhay mo gaya ng pagsira mo sa buhay ko - sa buhay namin. Hindi ko alam hanggang kailan mo gagawing miserable ang buhay ko pero sinasabi ko sayo IT WOULD END SOON. Wag ka lang magpapakita sa akin dahil baka makalimutan kong may pinag-aralan ako. Get the picture? Hindi mo kailanman gugustuhing makita nang anak mong umiiyak ka dahil hindi ko rin gustong makitang umiiyak ang nanay ko gaya ng pag-iyak niya ngayon. Kung ako lang, sayo na SIYA. SAYONG - SAYO. ISAKSAK MO SA BAGA MO! Pero sa nakikita ko, kailangan siya ng mga kapatid ko. They don't want a broken family. I mean, who wants? Pero ayokong maging selfish. Nasasaktan na masyado ang momsy ko. I want her to be free from all the pain pero paano? ANJAN KA SAMPU NG IYONG KADEMONYOHAN. Sana lang balang araw magkita tayo at ipapamukha ko sa'yo anong kinuha mo sa akin. Hindi sapat ang isang text message na pinadala ko noon sayo para iparating kung gaano kita kinamumuhian. I HATE YOU FOREVER. Sayang at hindi ko nabilang ang mga luha ko habang sinusulat ito dahil sa sama ng loob ko pero sinisigurado ko sayo na PAPALAPIT NA ANG KARMA MO. ANTAYIN MO LANG.

Alam mo kung tutuusin, pangit ka. PANGIT KA. Gusto mo mas mabasa mo? PANGIT KA! Ikaw ang reyna ng kapangitan sa mundo. Wag kang magpapakita sa akin kung hindi mas lalo kang papangit. Kawawa ka naman, diba? Pero ang mga kagaya mo hindi kinakaawaan.


----------------------------------------------------------- 


OO! Masama ang loob ko.

Forgettable unforgettable childhood moments.

Me, Atong and my sis-in-law were eating siomai yesterday and I noticed a kid who was trembling explaining what the hell happened to her photocopy. Really. Unforgettable moments of my childhood were like flashed before my eyes and these were not the good old days but the shameful, funny, old days :)

When I was in elementary, me and my bestfriend Nhor once, or twice cheated on Ramadhan. HAHAHA. We decided to walk on City Plaza and bought an ice water because we're soo thirsty. The next morning, we laughed so hard to discover how good drama artists we could be. And why the hell on Plaza and not in school canteen? because in canteen, someone might caught us.

I think, me being a talker is innate. It was in my fourth grade that my teacher threw her book on US. Yes. Me and my bestfriend. AGAIN. We were talking about something. I can't remember. Then our teacher asked us to get 20 pieces of books in the cabinet and let us stand the whole time in her class holding those damn Sibika at Kultura textbooks.

Shejerasadze M. Kamid is such a long name for a grade one pupil. And I was punished to write that in 5 pieces of paper and take note it's back to back because I was talking while doing my seat work. During those days, class should be dismissed at 4:00 pm but my mom had to wait an hour before we can go home. Pity mom.

I joined seminar on journalism when I was in grade four. As I have said on my older post, I don't wear jeans or pants during my elementary days. I attended the seminar with my favorite blue green checkered bestida and I was late. So imagined the students' eyes when they see me entered the room because I was the ONLY ONE wearing a girly girly girly super girly ewww dress. HAHAHA
Bonus story for this day: My super write up was all about 'Buntot ng butiki na nakakapagpagaling ng hika'. LOL. I can't remember how I came up to that. tsk. Loser.

When I was in fifth grade, I had an enemy who is in sixth grade.She was sassing me and snobbing me and always passing by our hallway. One afternoon, I saw her at the gate. She snobbed me and I snobbed her too. She came upon me and told me"anong problema mo?". And I stared at her ugly face and slapped her and ran. :)) the next morning, I didn't see her.

Ian Ben. My seat mate in elementary. All I remember was we were laughing really hard and my classmate at the back just suddenly punched me. And Ben had to grab me away from that monster Alexander. And when we're in a safe distance, I shouted: Bantay ka lang! Isusumbong kita sa tatay ko!. and I cried hysterically and ben was just there, laughing.

I had a friend named Cheena. She's not a close friend but she made me realize that the worst advice you can get from a person is the advice you never asked for. Gabriel whoever (I hate him e) was my bully classmate. He's teasing me and make fun of me when Cheena whispered, "She, sampalin mo man yan". At ako pud itoy, nituo ang buang. Piskot. HAHA. so, yes. I slapped Gabriel and he attempted to punched me but I ran. YES. AGAIN. The next school year, he transferred.

Spell clumsy and unlucky in just three letters? It's Xej. I can't really remember what grade I am into when this FUNNY EEW thing happened. I was walking (really I can't remember where) and suddenly fell at the canal somewhere. And no tricycle would want to sent me home because i was all wet and dirty and crying :( It crushed my heart to remember all this. HAHAHA. I repressed how deep is the canal, really.

Since childhood, I'm not good at direction. I was in the first grade when my mom was late to fetch me and I was eager to go home and got lost. Poor me. Thanks to the traffic policeman who sent me home. :))

I think these were too much. tsk. I always just laugh when I remember these and would just say: Thank God they happened for I learned to say and believe in the ancient saying that goes: This, too, shall pass. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I grew up welcoming new year with lola's round chocolates (usually nips) and fruits and with my cousins watching fireworks. I don't remember spending it with my mom and pop because they really don't celebrate new year. Just last year, maybe because of our new location and all that, they managed to be up until midnight. :)


Now, I am the only awake in the house trying to fill those write ups I missed. LOL. (murag work lang) aynaaaaa! They're all tired and sleeping and I'm still hyperactive and upbeat and laughing and blogging and posting "happy new year" messages to my friends' wall. But I didn't spend new year at home. Saturday morning, we're bound to Gensan for some meet up with my sister in law's family (that's also a tradition I learned recently). and I was hoping to death that we would be home on the same day. I wanted to go home, actually I'm dying to go home but I was not enough. We're 8 and I'm the only one who voted for YES TO HOME (traydor sila!).


To make the long sad story short, my pop and everyone else except me decided to throw some beach party. Ako na ang wagas ang pagka-KJ dahil hindi ako masaya. I want home. I want fireworks display, I want my bed, I simply just wanted to be at home. No ocean, videoke and food can ever replace my home. I slept at around 11 pm inside the car and when I woke up its 7am in the morning. So, I guess, I would just sleep all year round?! :D Ewan ko, feel na feel kong gusto ko talaga sa bahay nung bagong taon.


No new year's resolution this year because I'm tired of giving disappointments to myself. HAHAHA. I would just hope, 2012 is a continuation of a happy, contented, bitter - free life 2011 has given me :)

THE WEDDING.

Uulitin ko, I want this to be pure chika. So, no pictures. Next time :) Promise.

December 24, 2011, I guess was the happiest day for my annoying brother, so far! HAHAHA.And me? well, I was just the busy annoying beautiful sister of the groom trying my best to be all good and smiling with everyone but sorry, did I just make a scene? HAHA yea. the annoying beautiful sister of the groom just made a scene. Who paid the venue, anyway? and who chose the venue at the first place? (I thought naka move on nako because I already told this to everyone in the family and even to some friends. HAHAHA wala pa jud diay) hahaha!

 Me and my Tita did the last minute preparations and instructions. The wedding was 10 am but the bride and the groom got in at 11 am. Soo late! HAHAHA. but still the wedding went smooth.  After the wedding, the newly wed spent their first night at the bride's home (that's a tradition which I just learned recently). Supposedly, it's three days but my mom and pop did not agree to that for some personal reasons. Maldita pud akong mama uyy*


My sis in law was sooo mahiyain, I'm soo gonna freak out! HAHA. but she's at home now. Of course, I'm friendly eh. :)) So yes, We will be home buddies from now on. And as I said, she's sweet and okey and she's part of our family. :) She's so accepted by everyone and I wish when I marry someday, my husband's family would be just as accepting as ours.

AFTER BOARD.

Waiting. 

I went home two days after my board exam. I never expect Cotabato City to give me that busy life, you know. It's my brother's wedding last December 24 and I am more than eager to post pictures here but can I just do it next time? I want it to be pure writing/slash/chika. No uploading. I'm tired. HAHAHA. taraaaay te. :p

So yes, after the board, my life loved the word wait. Waiting for allowance, waiting for instructions, waiting for texts, waiting for work, waiting for the result, waiting for my life to be at its best. :) buang na gyud ko ba, last year sige pud ko hulat, hantod karon hulat lang japon! :D

WAITING FOR MY LIFE TO BE AT ITS BEST is such a lousy phrase. Yes, I know. Right now, all I can do is to plan and wait and give my best shot after. My pop wants me to rest and just enjoy this break and eat and sleep and assures me I don't have to work and he would just provide me allowance and all that - I am such a lucky daughter, I know. 

RANDOM PART TWO.

Thoughts are juggling inside my head right now. I wanted to write anything - like how's my life in Cotabato, my brother's wedding, me missing my friends, my year - ender and how I cope up with my sweet sister in law :)) I just wish I would not sleep in front of this monitor. :)