Who's Happy Again?

You said I'm playing safe. Maybe. Maybe not. I just really wanted to say the right words at the right time. But these are not yet the right words. HAHAHA.  I wish I could write this more than what you deserve. 


It all started with simple cliché conversations. Followed by cute pick-up lines and then you telling me I am special.ü ayy, sweet:) Thank you for being open with what you feel. Thank you for making an effort to make me smile and to at least be part of my daily life. Thank you for telling me I'm special in simpliest way you can. I know, you know that in that way I would not freak out. HAHAHA (Confrontation always makes me feel like someone's going to take away my heart. Loser) If only you could read this (someday, you will) I know you'd tell me to stop saying thank you because it's nothing compared to all I did, which until now I don't know. Pwede muhirit ug isa pa ka thank you? Thank you for always telling me that I'm making you happy:))


For staying awake 'till dawn with me just to wake up my bro for his meds - you at the other side of the planet and me on the other side, made me believed with what you have said that love conquers all. You're the corniest guy I've ever met but that made me feel like I'm the happiest girl alive because I have someone who's willing to sound corny and baduy just to hear me say: 'napasaya nanaman ako ng ka-cornyhan mo'.


That effort to text me even if I'm busy and still sending sms even if you don't get a reply at times made me hopeful that maybe you could be xejjy's male counterpart.:) And you know what? You are the best problem solver ever. How could you think of that wonderful idea to just call me after my review classes just for you to know how's my day and my review going? (because I really don't have time to answer text messages) Brilliant beyond brilliant idea. Haha ayyy! Sweet.:)


I'm not yet committed anyway. But I'm praying and hoping along with the positive result of board exam that you would not change.<3

23 Days Left

23 days left and there is still so much to learn. Tama ba un? Patapos na kami ng lectures bukas. The next day I wake up, I'll be heading to SM everyday 'till December 14 for our final coaching. OM! OM! I should be very ready for this final battle (haha. I remember papa romeo's (dolly's dad) food for thought, the final battle isn't the exam day itself but your preparation to that final day). Kelangan ko ng maraming motivations. Ayy, madami na pala ako nun. Sobra sobra na nga e, umaapaw na kaya pressured na din ang prinsesa ng mga magulang ko. HAHAHA.

Another thing, I don't want my parents to be here before the exam. That's too much pressure I can't handle. Hearing their voice over the phone would be more than enough.

Allah bless me, us.:)

Magmemorize sa ko ug phase 4 and 5 sa steps sa Research. :)

WHY

I'm using mobile blogger and I CAN'T post a comment.

So, Daryl and Doll next time na ako magreply ha. :)) Mwa!

Burnout.

Reviewing is not as easy as everyone thinks. Right at this very moment, I'm lying in the floor with my books everywhere. You know, I'm using mobile blogger! Oh I so love this. I hate the feeling of being tired, I wanna read everything but my system can't take it anymore. So, I decided to lie down and just stare blankly at the ceiling then blog. Haay!:) I have to do good in this so no regrets later.:) bhubye! Gotta have 2 thousand questions to rationalize!

Review.Review.Review.

#RANDOMFACTSABOUTME

76. Final na, BEYGATRON ang pangalan ng kotse ko.
77. Irregular ang menstruation ko.
78. 5 years old ako nung huli akong magka-nightmare.
79. When I was younger, ultimate pangarap ko talagang magkaroon ng bestfriend na guy. HAHAHA. loser.
80. Hindi ako mahilig sa gwapo - pwede ang gwapo pero hanggang crush lang. Chos.
81. Malikot ako matulog. Sobra!
82. Underweight ako ng konte. Konte lang naman.
83. Mahilig akong manguna sa mga bagay na pwedeng mangyari kaya naniniwala akong yun ang dahilan kung bakit hindi sila nangyayari.
84. May alkansya ako pero feel free to open pa rin ang drama.
85. Ako ang taong walang jacket.
86. Hindi ako mahilig magpabango. Madalas ko kasing makalimutan.
87. Marami akong DVD-pirated lahat. HAHA
88. Virgin pa ako.:)
89. 10mins. na ang pinakamatagal kong ligo.
90. Sinasawsaw ko sa suka at asin ang apple at watermelon.
91. May 8 unan ako sa kama.
92. Yellow talaga ang favorite color ko.
93. Teleserye queen ako.
94. Hindi ako marunong tumawid ng highway.
95. Mayroon akong chastity ring.
96. Mas gusto kong mag-isa pag namamasyal. Loner sa?
97. Frustation ko ang musical instruments.
98. Hindi ako komportable sa laptop na walang mouse. Haha
99. Kaya kong mag-tongue twister ng Peter Piper na mabilis.
100. Matatakutin ako pero di ako OA matakot. Hahaha

The Very Best Thing I Need

30 days to go and we‘re done and honestly I can‘t be that very cool about it. Anxiety‘s killing me until now. I‘m feeling it everyday that I got used to it. But I know I can‘t be like this ‘till that final day. HAHAHA.

Allah, help me. :)

Party hard. Study harder. Pray hardest.

Wear your heart on your sleeve.

I am that kind of person who displays my emotions openly, like really. Obvious kaayo ko sa tanan. Pero dili na nako problema kay asset na nako. HAHA pamati kaayo sa?

I told myself not to say anything about this but unfortunately I'm not the most secretive person on earth :p

Yea. So. before anything else, I would like to emphasize that I AM NOT CONFUSED. Hahaha. Hilas lang. 

I have this friend in High School and we're not really that close back then. We almost don't have time to talk with each other then. I just don't know how I convinced him or how he convinced me to sign in each other's scrapbook. HAHA. (I must admit, we did the scrapbook thing and all the mushy messages.LOL) We never communicated for 4 long years until suddenly we came upon each other posting comments on the same FB status or anything like that. Then we chat and he asked for my number and the next thing I know, we're texting. :D 

He's fond of texting cute pick-up lines. Knowing myself, I love CORNY, OLD PICK - UP lines. It's soo me. So, since pabida man pud ko, naga send pud ko sa iya ug banat lines which in return left me with no choice but to smile because he always caught me off guard with those cute replies. ayyyy. :) Syempre, kiligon man jud ka gamay. HAHA! 

But for me, those were just pure FRIENDLY TEXTS not until my friend Daryl (tey, pagcomment comment pud kay ikaw jud baya ang gisugdan ani) told me she would cut her fingers into pieces if this guy is JUST REALLY a FRIEND. Pagara kaayo ka tey! :p


I observed. And so I noticed HAHA. Murag jud lage naay something? HAHA. and so when he texted me that touchy mark of me wearing a white gown blah blah.. the assuming - brave - paranoid me tried to asked him a very AWKWARD question. As in, awkward. HAHA!

'Joke lang naman ung mga banat lines diba? 

Wala lang naman un diba? '

November 10, 2011

09:48 pm

 He replied:

'Hahaha. Dinadaan ko lang sa joke lahat She pero partly totoo yun.'

November 10, 2011

09:54 pm

Speechless. Ngano gwapa man gud. :D Yati. HAHA

'Hahahah. K. (Speechless nako.) 

Ang tapang2 ko naman magtanong'

November 10, 2011 

09:58 pm

Ana siya:

'Wala namang masama sa tanong mo She. 

Basta Just think of it as my way of knowing you better.'

 November 10, 2011

10:04 pm

Dah. Na-englishan nuon ko. HAHA. In addition to what has been said, NO MORE AWKWARD FEELING. To be honest, I'm soo happy that someone out there is really making an effort to know me better. :)

JUMBO, BATANG AMA.

I believe our parents brought us up well. They never forget to remind us that being morally upright (kuyawa oyyy! HAHAHA) is better than anything we could be in this world.

But I also believe that when a person grows old, old enough to call himself a grown up, he tends to shift path which he thinks he knows best and those childhood values he got became uncertain.

When that cute small baby you cuddle every night turns into a grown up you rarely hug and see, that's the saddest part of being a parent. - mom and pop.

November 9, 2011
I was eating when I got a text from my younger Bro.
"Kk may, kilala mo si Angelito?"

I thought it was one of those introductory annoying texts I usually got from him, so I didn't reply.

Next text:
"Kaka may, feeling ko ako si Angelito (Naka-smile jud ko pinakalit ani) kay parang preggy (What a term!) ung gf ko."

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And I replied:
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Pakasli na na dong! 

Yea. I AM SOOO HAPPY. I'm gonna be a REAL Tita, soooon! But aside from being a tita, I am so proud of my brother for taking the responsibility. I mean, he's so brave to tell me and my pop that he's becoming a father. Plus, I'm the first to know about it (Isn't is sweet? HAHA Now I know, he trusts me enough). Me and my bro aren't that sweet - close. We're the annoyingly close. We don't usually hug each other. We constantly shout each other's AWFUL moniker and laugh after that. We don't share personal problems but we talked about our family problems almost every week. That's how we are, we're creating family problems that aren't existing! HAHAHA

My mom doesn't know about it, yet. She'll freak out, you know. HAHA but pop promised us he'll tell her. And Pop's reaction? Oh so supportive! like he didn't got angry or what but he's happy. And he also told him  those fatherly lines like "wag mong isipin yun. bakit? problema ba ang magka-anak ka? and Basta kahit anong kelangan, andito lang kami and Walang problema sa akin yan. Wag lang si Kaka May mo ang mabuntis ng hindi pa kasal. Magpapakamatay ako. HAHAHA. Sweet. (Don't worry Pop, VIRGIN PA AKO, I replied.) and about the girl, my ever supportive father told her that if the girl will continue her studies, he'll support her. Supportive jud diay diay!

I think I already have the power of tongue. LOL.  I remember, I told him that I really wanted to have a niece or nephew and he was like "BAHALA KA JAN! GUSTO MO IKAW NA MAGBUNTIS". HAHAHA. Sorry Bro. Allah knows best. :))

Kiddo, you'll gonna be a father soon. You already know what a child needs and we already talked about what a perfect family is. And I know you admire how our parents brought us up. I believe I'm not yet old enough to be your bride's maid. HEHEHE. It's a dream come true. bro. LOL. And oh! you know, our family likes your bride - to -be. Be the best husband there is which I know you'll be.

About the childhood values became uncertain - it's not. HAHAHA. My brother grew up responsible enough to face the consequences of his actions. :)

I salute my parents! :D

Do the Right. Practice the Right. Love the Right.

Do everything AT LEAST right. If it's not the right thing, at least do it in right place and right time. An applause or praise doesn't really point to a thing being right.

Practice every bit of your right. All you need is an understanding of what you can do, what you need to do and what others can't do to you. :D

Be a right lover. Grasp the meaning of the word R-I-G-H-T.  And you'll never be wrong. <3

:)))

RANDOM

Samukan jud ko aning random uyy.

October 29.

Went home. Happy to see my family again after a not - so - long one month of not seeing each other. My pop decided to stop by at my uncle's house for wala lang. Para magpapampam. HAHAHA. It's in the bloodline man.  LOL. Seriously, my cousin will have his time of his life. He's getting married on the next day so we stopped by to give our best wishes.

October 30.

We slept 1 am because the wedding was some sort of family reunion. REALLY. I realized that so far we only had one family or clan reunion - whatever and I WAS NOT there. LOSER. Got the chance to talk with my cousins and aunties and uncles and share funny, no - sense stories with them. They cooked everything for the wedding and all that. Then we woke up at 4 am because we're going to the bride's place. :) (oh yes. I'm thinking of posting about traditional muslim wedding) 

Past 9 A.M

My head hurts. My leg cramps. Bungisngis' tired but not hungry, though. Samooook! I thought it was an ordinary barrio place. But when we started to walk and walk and walk and walk, I never imagined a place that far but got speechless with what's waiting for me UP there. Oo, maountain ni among gisaka. Pastilan. 

*And then while watching the vast area down there (down there and up there lang jud akong masulti kay wala ko kabalo asa to.) I told myself I could live there. And I would go back there, promise. 

But you know, I got tired and thirsty and there's no drinking water  available so I told myself again, I'd die here, really. Mamatay man sad ta didto uyyy!

and yes, di sa'ko mubalik didto. Saka na pag naa nay tubig.

That's my senseless hiking story.