Feel something else.

You cannot prevent people from bringing pain in your life. Most often than not you don't let go of that feeling in less than a month or so. You are fortunate if you can do so. When you're in pain you tend to think that the pain was personally inflicted and it was unfair and hurtful for you to take the blame. What you cannot understand is that sometimes it's both of you who commited mistake but you as a person hurt - you get bitter.

When you feel like you're hurt or betrayed by someone, it's okay to feel sad and angry and mad. Being bitter is a natural thing to feel but be sure to feel good and better and happy afterwards. 

When someone hurt you, be a nagger. It's okay. Blame that person all you want and free yourself from all the guilt then let go and be better. 

When you are in pain, you have all the courage to be mad and feel sad and oppressed. You don't usually get the other side of the story. You want to draw a picture of those things that were gone in your life after you've been hurt and slap it to that person's face. 

When you are disappointed, don't let go of that feeling unless you did get even. Getting even or the feeling of need to get even is very acceptable. You just have to remind yourself that being beautiful and happy and being absolutely and totally okay is the sweetest revenge. 

Yes, you were hurt but it doesn't mean you have to wish that person being miserable. Doing so would hurt you even more. Being bitter and nagger is very acceptable and wishing something beyond is very unprofessional and immature (talk of being matured).

Feel the pain, taste the tears, embrace the hurt - be bitter, let go and then get better.

THIS IS IT.

We're done 4 months ago and I want you to know that I am living my life to its best without anymore bitterness in my heart <3. I've already forgiven you and myself. I think we've hurt each other enough or so much that we cannot love each other again. You tried to be the best without knowing that you were already the best for me. I did overanalyzed you that I forgot to understand you as you are. 

After the break - up, I was bitter. Bitterness helped me to move forward with motivation and confidence :)) I thought, its been all your fault and you've pushed me so hard that I had to move - on. As I decided to do so, I grew up and be matured as well. I realized, maybe you just don't want to hurt me in the long run. 

Now, I'm doing sooo well. I'm so fine that by this time I can't remember when was the last time my pillow was wet with tears.

I'M SO OVER YOU. We're truly done. <3

Happy Independence Day

Free Me.

Single Me.

Happy Me.

Beautiful Me.

Always Me.




Gorgeously Yours,

Xejjy <3

Changed Me.

So, the changed me has to change the world. :))

No to Palawan Mining. 

I've seen this on television two months ago but because of busy schedules, I forgot to post something about it. I remember when Kissy told me that after passing the board exam she would work as a nurse in a  mining company somewhere in Palawan, you know  my reaction was? hahahahahahahahaha! Well, I had been telling her the whole day NOT TO DARE work on mining company because I would reject her as my friend. hahahahaha and Dolly was like laughing her head off while I am dead serious blabbing my litany about palawan mining. Fortunately, kissy confirmed that it was not the Palawan mining she'd enter. Thank God or else I would be compelled to not to consider her as one of my closest - gorgeous friend. LOL.

I was just joking about the  reject word. I love Kissy so much and I think she' scompletely aware of my stand about environment dilemmas. :))

MY 3 RUDE BOYS.

If I do have my kantobols at school, I also have my 3 rude boys at Cosmopolitan (LOL). Harris, Kent and James are my new found friends. Well, Kent and I were schoolmates way back when we were in high school but we're not that close. These 3 rude boys are very much like of a brother to me. They do not fail to make me feel that I am missed by them. They call and text me when I'm not around. They were the first ones to greet me congratulations during my graduation day. They welcome me with bright smiles and "solid pare" lines when I'm home. Harris was always the one who tells me I'm beautiful and cute at dark and welcomes me with a hug. James was the sweet and proper guy and Kent will always be the makulit and bubbly one. 

Rude boys, Thank you for letting me have my sleepover at your air-conditioned pad, for sharing your groceries to us, for making me laugh always, for making me realize that friendship isn't how long you've known a person but when she/he makes you feel you are a friend, for letting me invade your personal life and for that gift you have given me on my graduation day. That was so sweeet. I was teary - eyed and happy and glad that you remember my special day.

     

You know all that you are loved by me. :))

M.F

What the?! We had our rehearsal today and it was not just a rehearsal but a dress rehearsal as well. I was wearing my stiletto heels all day long and was standing and marching and singing all day long also. Taking pictures with Chikabols were soo fun! (I'm gonna miss everyone for sure). Aside from that five song we have for pinning ceremony and commencement exercise I also sung 5 different love/mellow/rock songs from my heart. LOL. Got a nice and happy lunch with chikadoras. Laughtrip while buying some foodie for the next rehearsal (you know, just not to get bored and all). This day is awful tiring! M.F. LOL.