PROUD ENOUGH

YES. VERY MUCH PROUD OF WHAT I AM AFTER FOUR YEARS. :)) REALLY. WHAT I GAINED, WHAT I LEARNT, WHAT I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED, WHERE I AM AND WHAT I AM RIGHT NOW. I MAY NOT GRADUATE WITH HONORS BUT I'L GRADUATE MY DEGREE WITHOUT SPENDING MY PARENTS' MONEY. :)) HAHAHAHA. BUT OF COURSE, WITHOUT THEM, EVERYTHING I AM AND HAVE RIGHT NOW WON'T BE POSSIBLE. I OWE THEM A LOT, STILL. I LOVE YOU UMI AND ABI. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY INSPIRATION IN ACHIEVING GREAT THINGS IN LIFE <3

I don't want you back for the weekend, not even forever.

PRC form, how will I get you done? How many ream of bond paper do I have to waste to get you done? There will be a lot of C.I's to go after just to complete you. And oh! how would I forget the chief nurses and the RLE coordinator? I would have to travel and puke just to get those damn signatures. :(( and you know, I even didn't start you yet. YOU WAIT. 

COPAR, can you please let go. Pleeeeeeaase? You're leaving my clearance as clear as a blank sheet of blue half bond paper :( and you know........Oh! special things make you go speechless and you must know that you are special. You're my favorite, remember?! If that's the case, can you make me yours?  Though I'm gonna miss you but I don't want to spend the rest of my spare time editing you :(( for me you're perfect. 

PAYMENTS, get lost. NOW. Don't have money yet. :)) not now. Please. Don't you know my mom and dad are yelling me on the other line because of you? Payments, have a life! Don't depend on me. 

The one who wish to never see you again,

XEJ.

Seminar Done.

Seminar is sooo soooo done :)) I'll miss the everyday lecture and all the remarkable/stunning backdrop. haha And in the seminar is where I met my NEW CRUSH. haha LIKE REALLY. :)) Mr. B. you know, you're a fast talker but for me you're just SMART. and oh! I soo love you. haha really. :(( I Wish you don't have a girlfriend </3.Ambi much.

CRUSH TALAGA KITA.

CRUSH NA CRUSH KITA.

CRUSH KITA.

I Thought. :|

You bring back the pain again. Oh shit! I thought I am okey, like so much better.But it's obvious that I am not.

BUSY.

I never thought there could be more busy than the psychia exposure. The SEMINAR is superb. I mean, It consumes all my time. I had 14 missed calls from my mom. No texts. I never got time to even check my phone. I'm busy about everything but ironically I love the feeling. I love the feeling of being deserving to my meals and merienda, to my sleep and even to that glimpse of happiness in receiving simple hugs from chikadoras. I love the feeling of being busy. Technically, I forgot everything and it feels much better. :))

I THINK MUCH BETTER.

         I thought I would never feel anything after that but just last night, I breakdown again. I'd never get used to that feeling. Or maybe I'll grow tired of feeling the pain and try to hold it loosely. I may not be on the right side to act such but I think it's not just about the 1 month, it's about the waiting. Oh yes. Here I am again. and I promise this would be the last.

        I talk to my bestest friend last night and he told me to be better for myself and I think that's the reason why I can't tell him that I won't be better - not yet. But just this morning (this morning is one of the prettiest mornings I had since my birthday) I realized I had everything, That I am somehow good enough to someone, that I am Doll's great friend, that I am graduating, that I am loved by my parents so much, that I have kantobols and chikadoras, that I am beautiful :)), that I am kind in my own ways, that I can be talented sometimes, that I am lucky to be sensitive much, that I will pass the board, that I will achieve great things in life and that I know that I have Parts who highly favored me. See parts? I'm okey. I think much better than last night.

        :))